Time To Take Your Medicine-16 Kislev 5771

Don’t you just hate it when your advice comes back to get you? Carrie was about to leave this morning to do some errands and I wasn’t quite ready to see her off. She said, “Well, you’ll be done in a minute, I’ll just wait to kiss you.” I said, “Yeah, it might be the last kiss we get.” That was it. Ouch. I had just spent a whole day two days ago feeling sorry for myself because of some circumstances (that, of course, are always insignificant in the scheme of things) and lost everything that the day could have had.

As a general rule, I do look past the things that go on (gam zu latovah, this too, is for the good) and look for the things to learn and improve myself in. But, every once in awhile my yetzer harah (evil inclination) gets me and down I go. The worst part is that I don’t usually go alone. For some reason everyone around me seems to go down too. Boy does that really help with the guilt.

In a way, having these times is also a good thing. Not that the L-RD would want me be a spoiled brat, but this also is a time to grow. I see in it that I am far, far away from where I will be one day, bezrat Hashem, (with the help of the L-RD) and it’s a great opportunity to grow in my humility. May the L-RD give me 20-20 vision to see my faults and not be afraid to confront them.